assalamualaikum and hi everyone (who reads this) so here is some 'coretan' from someone who knows me quite well and he also know pretty much everything (about my life)
I spent lots of time talking to him since last year after spm's result came out. he such an amazing and kindhearted friend-like-a-bro. he always there whenever i need him. such a supportive friend who's always support me no matter what decision i'll make and i've made. i dont know how to thank him anymore sebab dia yang paling banyak layan and sabar dengan kerenah aku yang sumpah pelik gila. thank you! :)

so here you go,

Hi. I already wrote this for a long time then I remember that you want to post it on your blog, so I give it to you with some additional and edit. I keep writing about us but just for me to read it back ahahaha
Raden Hazlilyshameeza Binti Radin Amerruddin. I know her since 14th April 2015 at 11.03 pm. First impression towards her, I think she is a serious girl because she is a teacher. Then, lama lama baru kenal cikgu lily ni macam mana. She is friendly especially towards kids because she loves kids very much. First thing I remember is that time she is learning to drive. Seriously, I have no confident at all with her sebab banyak perempuan selalunya nervous bila drive. Benda paling dia takut masa tu RPK. Everything she asked me about RPK and that was funny, how can she forgot about simple things? But actually she knew it, she just want to get the confirmation. Then masa yang ditunggu tunggu dah tiba, test JPJ. Me also get nervous during she is going through the test. Then she told me that she passed RPK, fuhh tenang lah jugak rasanya. She did everything well and she managed to get a license at her first attempt. Wow dia ni bukan biasa biasa ni. Then lepas je lesen she had a problem about mana nak sambung belajar. Mula mula dia ni berharap dekat IPG and she was very happy bila dapat second interview for IPG. Then after the interview I just knew that she was not interested to be a teacher. Masa tu rasa pelik tu Allah je yang tahu. She was a teacher before and she loves kids very much but suddenly she told me that she was not interested to be a teacher??? Actually, her mom yang nak dia jadi cikgu. Hmm no wonder. Kalau UPU tu memang dia takkan pergi lah sebab jauh and course pun merepek. So, pilihan yang dia ada cuma ada IPG, KPTM and other IPTS untuk sambung belajar. Dari awal dia dah kata yang dia nak sangat course tesl or something yang berkait dengan english sebab dia minat english. And KPTM is the only college yang dia nak sangat sebab KPTM je yang boleh offer tesl masa tu than other choices. She don't want to be at IPG or others. By the time tunggu result KPTM, IPG semua tu she went to form 6. Sekejap je form 6 tu and not many story to tell. The conflict began after the result of KPTM had been announced. Sadly that she was not offered to KPTM. During that time, her mom, brother, uncle, aunty, everyone suggested her to go for this college, this university including me that created more mess on her head. Her mom want her to be a nurse. Her brother don't want her to be at form 6. I keep telling her to continue at form 6. She knew that she loves to cook and then she asked her mom to future her studies in culinary but being rejected by her mom and her brother. She is very afraid of her brother well she told me that her brother is very strict and stern ahahahaha I don't know it. Suddenly she told me that she tried to apply KUIS in Diploma English Linguistic and Literature, am I right? She was being offered into KUIS. I think it is the only choice that she had that time because her brother don't want her to be at form 6 and her mom wants her to be a nurse. I remember she told me that if she don't want to go to KUIS, her mom will send her to KPJIC to be a nurse. She have no choice. She registered into KUIS reluctantly. First day she went there not even 24 hours, she cried because she missed her family. I think it is normal because that was first time she separates with family. She was very strong, she go through all the pain with cheerful and still got a smile on her face. Although she always being alone there, she knew what to do during that free time. Mula mula masuk situ, semua benda tak kena untuk dia. Still remember semua benda yang dia mengadu and dia memang taknak pun duduk situ. Dia harap sangat rayuan KPTM or permohonan IPG dia diterima. But unfortunately, she was not being offered by IPG and KPTM offered her a different course than what she wants. So, whether she want or not, she must continue her studies there. I think KUIS is the best place for her. She is getting better day by day, she is not crying anymore and she became a stronger girl after that. She is a smart girl. I knew that she got high for her carry marks and I was impressed. This is her interests and for sure this is the passion for her to get a flying colours in every sem InsyaAllah. I guess many other thing that I'm not write in this note. This is just a few things and I wrote it like a short story. Let all that other thing be a good memories for me. I hope you are fine now and always smile although you have to go through a hard situation. Take care lily. I want to see your 2016 summary next year, if I still have time. Congrats because you had go through all your hectic days with fun
P/s: sorry for grammar and vocabulary mistakes

thankyou sebab tulis panjang-panjang macam ni :P 

dalam hidup ni, walau lama mana pun kita hidup tapi tak pandai nak buat pilihan--
    susah. (ya aku tak pandai langsung nak buat pilihan dalam hidup)
dalam hidup ni jugak kalau kita tak pernah berkorban untuk something--
    rugi. (at least aku pernah korbankan something)


so guys, the point is: pernah tak korang buat pilihan whether it was a right one or it went all wrong?
                                  pernah tak korang berkorban something yang korang sayang just untuk tengok                                     orang lain happy?


whether the choices that you've made or you're going to make is a great one for yourself or it is the best for your love ones,

whether the choices that you've made or you're going to make was the one that you had to made (even if you're not willing to) for yourself or for others happiness, or you've just choose the wrong choice because of you ego or youself,


it's not matter how big is your sacrifice as long as it is the right one for yourself or your future,


.............or maybe you've sacrifice a lot for your love ones,